As a pastor, I am sometimes asked to officiate at funerals
of non-members. On one such occasion I was running a little late. My wife had
taken the car; therefore, I was using my old truck. It was sometimes touchy and
not always the most reliable means of transportation, but earlier in the day I
had gone out and made sure that everything was running.
So when I put the key into the ignition when it was time to
leave, I was surprised that the key wouldn’t even turn. This had happened
several times before, so I didn’t immediately panic, but after I did everything
I knew to solve the problem and still nothing happened, I started to worry. How
was I going to get to the funeral home in time for the funeral?
After several more vain efforts, I finally started to get
out of the truck. I was going to have to admit defeat. Maybe I could call a cab.
As I pulled the keys out and started to put them in my
pocket, I noticed something strange. The orange fob on the key ring was blue.
With a gasp of recognition, I realized that I had been trying to put the car
keys in the truck. When I actually put the truck keys in the truck ignition,
the engine roared to life, and I made it to the funeral home in plenty of time.
Sometimes we have to remember to use the keys that we have
been given, not just any key that happens to come to hand. The keys to the
kingdom open the way to a life of forgiveness or they block the way. The
disciples ask how many times must we forgive, seven times?
Jesus’ response is somewhat challenging for us today,
because we live in a more literalistic time, but Jesus’ response is more like
forever. He says seventy times seven, or seventy and seven, or even
seventy-seven times. It is important for us to remember that in Jesus’ time,
they had no zero so numbers are more metaphorical in literature like this. The
number of times Jesus mentions then is more like as many times as you are
asked.
Still the keys come with the admonition: “If you forgive the
sins of others they will be forgiven, but if you do not forgive, the sins of
the person will be held against them forever.” There are times when I do not
want to forgive, but really, if they come to you for forgiveness, can you
really deny them?
In my first congregation there had been some difficulties. I
was hurt, even angry. On Ash Wednesday at the time for the imposition of ashes,
it felt good to tell the people that they were going to return to dust. Then
this little girl came forward. She had not been part of the conflict. So when
she came forward to receive the sign of the cross in ashes, and she looked up
at me with those little-girl-trusting-eyes, I almost came unglued.
And then on Maundy Thursday, when we had the opportunity for
individual absolution, she came forward with her mother. Again she looked at me
with those trusting eyes, and I thought. “You have nothing to repent of. Certainly
God forgives you for anything that you have done.” Her mother stood right
behind her, and then I had to give her absolution too. It was in that moment
that I realized that the forgiveness I was giving was not mine to withhold. As
a pastor, I was giving the forgiveness that I had first received and in whose
name I served. Who was I to withhold God’s word of forgiveness and hope for
reconciliation?
If Christ could forgive from the
cross, then how could I withhold God’s grace and mercy? It changed my feelings
toward the whole congregation, and it changed my attitude in ministry.
It has not changed the number of times I have been upset
with people in the congregation, nor has it changed the number of times that my
feelings have been hurt. I still want to ask with the disciples. “Really? I
have to forgive that person too? How many times?”
The answer remains the same. And the keys to the kingdom
continue to hang heavy on my belt until I remember that I am passing on what I
have already been given.
What a privilege it is then to say those incredible words at
the end of corporate confession: “As a called and ordained minister of the
church of Christ and by Christ’s authority, I declare to you the entire forgiveness
of all of your sins, in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit.” Yes,
those are the keys that open the gates renewing and revitalizing our reconciled
lives in Christ.
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