Before I begin, I ask the forgiveness of all of you who are
Johnsons, I have used the Johnson family name in this post simply as a
convenience for, as far as I know, not a single person referenced has ever been
named Johnson. Given names have also been changed. Any similarity to your own
worshipping space should cause you and your worshipping community to ponder
what our Christ centered, resurrection proclamation is and how those who do not
know our story as well as you do may receive the message of good news we make.
It was probably arrogance that prompted me to take one of my
calls. Of course I felt called to be there. Of course I thought that we would
be able to get along with one another. Yes, I knew that the terms of the call
were tenuous. Yes, I thought that the Holy Spirit was leading me to that place,
and I thought that I could help these two congregations. They were both
experiencing decline, and I thought that I could help them turn that around.
Of course, I was wrong. Whenever God’s work becomes an “I”
thing, it is no longer God’s work. I knew that. I believed it, but somehow I
didn’t listen to myself or the many mentors and professors and authors I had
worked with and read.
Eventually I came to my senses, but by that time all of the
great ideas I had had had mostly failed. So, one afternoon when I sort of knew that my
time was short, as my eye sight was going but before it was gone, I went into
one of the churches to scream at God, lick my wounds, and seek direction for
the future.
This is an old church building by Midwestern standards and
it has that wonderful smell that many of these old churches have. Do you know
the smell? It is of years of burning wax candles, scented hand lotion worked
into the covers and pages of hymnals, of perfume and aftershave, of plaster and
carpeting, of dust and mustiness, of wood and metal polish. For me, it is the
holy scent of God.
After my initial rantings to God, I started to feel a little
foolish. After all God already knew my problems and my shortcomings. I didn’t
really need to be explicit, did I? After some time, I started pacing around
this very familiar space to calm down, thinking about next steps in walking
with God’s people in faith.
I moved from space to space within the sanctuary noticing
cracks and chips. Next I stood in front of the stained glass windows
surrounding the worship space. I noticed the large windows of the Holy Family
on the one side and the Ascension on the other. I thought about how the
worshipping community was held in the embrace of these two windows of Christ’s
vulnerable coming and his glorious, ascending resurrection promise. I thought
of how the baptismal font was centered between the two and how our lives were lived
in the tension between those windows in Baptismal hope.
I walked up to the windows that surrounded the altar, and I
noticed the themes of the windows that moved from baptism to the cross on the
altar and then life in the resurrection. It was amazing and spiritually
satisfying until I noticed the panels and plaques on everything. So, I started
walking through the church again, paying attention to the memorial signage. As
I walked, I thought about many of the churches I have worshipped in, worked in,
and served as pastor. I thought about the “edifice complex” that we have and about
our need for self-aggrandizement.
At one of the windows I started to laugh. And, whenever I
think about it today, I have to laugh again.
I was looking at the window of Jesus being baptized by John.
Under every window was a beautiful stained glass memorial panel. This one read
“In memory of the Johnson brothers.” At Jesus knocking at the door, it read,
“In memory of John Johnson.” I laughed even harder. Under the boat on the sea,
with Peter armpit deep in the waters with his hand raised to Jesus and a boat
of disciples in the background, “In memory of the Johnson family.” It all
became absurd. I knew what the pictures were, and yet, I was being told that
these were not the images of Jesus’ life, but rather they were the Johnson family
pictures. All the plaques and memorials I had seen throughout my life came
flooding in on me and I laughed and laughed and laughed.
I remembered a piano I had to tune that had the plaque
“Donated to the glory of God by Johanna Johnson.” It was a good piano in its
day, but it was always difficult to tune and no longer held its tune very well.
Yet, when the musicians of the congregation wanted to get rid of it, they
couldn’t because there were still members of Johanna’s family in the church,
and they might be offended. How relieved everybody was when the church had a
fire and the piano was damaged beyond repair.
I remembered the baptismal font at a church I served that
had a large sterling silver basin. Amid some beautiful scroll work at the
bottom of the basin was this message: “In memory of Johannes Johnson.” It was
small print until water was put in. Then the water magnified the letters to almost
an inch high. I, of course, didn’t realize this until I was in the middle of a
baptismal service one day. As I bent forward to baptize the baby, I clearly
read the inscription and almost baptized the child in the name of the Father,
and of the Son, and you’ve got to be kidding! Johannes Johnson?” I was so shocked
that I almost dropped the baby.
One church had a wall filled with the names of charter
members and those who had made major contributions (money) to support the
ministry of the church. A couple of names were missed. The addition of those
names later was not able to keep them in proper alphabetical order. It took
hours of pastoral visits and pleadings to get forgiveness from some, and others
never did come to worship again.
In one of the churches I served, a water fountain (bubbler)
was given in memory of those who had died in war. A U.S. flag neatly folded in
a beautifully crafted case and a plaque with the names hung above the fountain.
When one of the children in the congregation heard that all of the people had
died, she refused to drink from it because she was not going to be poisoned.
We want to give of what we have to the glory of God as we
sing God’s praises, but we really want that book plate saying in the memory of
one of our faithfully departed. Okay, I’m not really opposed to the book plate
thing. When my family came to worship, my mother would open the hymnal cover to
see who she was worshipping with that week. Sometimes the hymnal was one
dedicated in my father’s name (he had died when I was quite young) and she
would smile. But when the new hymnals are purchased, do we really need to be
concerned that the families who gave those worn out books will be offended if
we get rid of them? Do we really need to build a memory hall to include these
old relics?
Although we are coming up on 500 years of Luther’s great reformation
movement (Lutheran laughter is allowed here), Luther’s protest against relic collections
seems to continue in our midst. We even cling to our old reliquary altars with
the many drawers and cupboards which were designed to store the relics of the
saints and mementos of Christ’s life, maybe even a sliver from the cross.
We say that we are a place of resurrection proclamation and
then put the United States flag next to the pulpit or the cross. We claim that
our hope is in Christ, that as we have died in Christ so shall we be raised up
with Christ, and then we cover our caskets with the United States flag.
Really!? Has the flag gained some salvific character I am unaware of?
These are just some of the ways we build museums to
ourselves instead of places to celebrate and worship God’s activity in our
lives. We give money for the beautification of the worship space knowing that
material things wear out. Yet when they need to be replaced, people are
offended. In the midst of all of this clamor for recognition we gather in
memorial halls, at memorial tables, on memorial chairs, to study God’s inspired
word with memorial book plates. We find our way into baptismal living using
memorial fonts, hear God’s word from memorial pulpits, celebrate Eucharist at
memorial altars draped with memorial paraments using memorial chalices and
patens, being fed at memorial altar rails, in spaces protected by the United
States flag. It often seems a miracle to me that Christ’s resurrection good
news makes it out into the world at all.
I understand and I spiritually depend on, and yet I need to
be reminded of, the fact that we worship in a holy space that transcends the
boundaries of our lives and cosmos. That we stand on the shoulders of the
faithful who have gone before. That we stand with the great cloud of saints
worshipping each and every day, Sunday in particular. That we are not alone as
individuals or individual congregations.
That Christ is not our personal-property redeemer; Christ redeems us. Yes,
we need all these reminders, but are the reminders we use helping us to engage
the world around us or to run from it?
As I walked around the space that day, I was determined to
ask the people of my congregation to tell me the stories of the Johnson family
and then to ask them to tell me how those stories helped them speak of their
faith today. When I lost my sight, it was determined that I had to leave my
call and so those conversations never really got started. I sometimes wonder
what would have come of those conversations.
As the liturgical year comes to an end, on the last Sunday
before Christ the King Sunday, we will
hear Luke’s words recording Jesus’ statements about the temple. We know from
other sources that the temple was an architectural marvel, and from a distance
it looked like it was floating above the city. One source I read claims that it
looked like a cloud crowned by gold with such brilliance that it hurt the eyes
to look at it when the sun was shining. No wonder it drew comment.
Yet Jesus was unimpressed. When some were speaking about the
temple, how it was adorned with beautiful stones and gifts dedicated to God,
[Jesus] said, “As for these things that you see, the days will come when not
one stone will be left upon another. All will be thrown down.”
With the destruction of the temple, where God’s people
thought that God’s presence could be contained, possibly imprisoned, Jesus
points to God’s activity in the world, not in an EDIFICE or even a complex of edifices.
God’s presence in Christ’s body continues to be among us. We are the parts of
Christ’s body, raised up IN Christ to love God and to love our neighbors. We
are, in the words of Ephesians, “knit together by every ligament with which it
is equipped” for the benefit of our relationship with God and one another. We
are called with Malachi to be the messengers of God’s word, and in the words of
Second Thessalonians to “Stand firm and hold fast to the traditions [we are]
taught.”
Oh yes, that stained glass window of John Johnson knocking
at the door? I noticed that he was knocking to get out of the church, not in.